I have a special skill of feeling too much when I shouldn’t, and nothing when I should. Why one might ask? Well it’s all in the interpretation of words and I am a constant seeker of hidden meanings in sentences spoken or in actions taken. No one can dissect the most minute word and make a mountain (or a gorge) of it like I can. That is, if I’m in the mood for it. If not, I can ignore it without paying any attention to you nor the words coming out of your mouth. Unclear of which is worse to be honest. It is something only friends and foes can be the judge of.
This also means I have a huge interest in reading peoples body language, to see how they choose to behave or act under different circumstances. What they say, how the deliver their message, what they chose to keep quiet and what goes unspoken in between the conversations. To put it simple, I love studying people. And that’s probably why I love to take photos, to study the surroundings of the objects in my phone lens and think how the beauty of the object is truly in the eye of the beholder. Humans or stills.
Although I am a lover of observation and contemplation in my private sphere, I am a totally different person at work. There I thrive in a fast paced environment where quick, on your feet decisions, could make or break an issue laying on the table. Where I find structure and calm in chaos like nothing else. But I have to know what I’m doing. Being lost is not an option and not knowing is not an excuse – you educate yourself, you strive to enlighten your decision making. You take control, not the other way around. I don’t find beauty in indecisiveness nor in people who do not have the courage to stand up for what they believe, especially when their opinions could be considered controversial. Do take a stand against me and my opinions, just be ready to discuss them.
This morning I was having a planning session at work together with one of my colleagues. Well, she’s one of my bosses if we’re going to be honest here. As I was laying out my vision on the whiteboard she started laughing. Not at the vision but over the fact that I had to use a ruler for my lines and that I re-wrote the lines if they were “out of place”. What she said wasn’t far off to be honest – “I do believe that that is what YOU would call functional OCD”.
So if you want to wow me, be articulate. Strong in your beliefs. Driven, a person of action but with the mind of a dreamer. But more importantly, don’t let yourself, or others, stand in the way of your dreams. Be free, bold, beautiful and fierce. Be you. No matter what. Be the person you want to be. ❤️
For me 2021 will be the year I find out what I actually want, make a plan and work on it. Every. Single. Day.
Love from Stockholm ❤️